honestly missionaries are evil. the idea of traveling the world to tell people Who Didnt Fucking Ask that their beliefs are wrong in the hopes that theyll adopt your beliefs seems sinister
She stared into the window. The night was dark enough that she could clearly see the reflection of the furniture, but the angle at which she sat thankfully hid her own shaking form from her sight.
“G-d, tell me, what’s the point – what’s the point of living in a cruel world?” It sounded pathetic, dumb, even to her own ears, it sounded too much like begging she swore so much to be above.
The fear stayed. “It’s too much. Everything’s too much,” she inhaled, voice shaking. “If happiness is about being aware of our influence, our significance – why do we live in a world where more controls us than we can control? Why do we live in a world so set on hiearchy, on luck? Is there any point in significance, if all we have is just the illusion of it?”
Her exhausted brain imagined what they would say, how they’d react, without her wanting it.
You’re too arrogant, too narcissistic-,
The world wasn’t saved by whining-
Too ambicious, hypocritical, sensitive. Typical-
The fear returned, stabbed through her chest like an iron rod, making her fight for her breath before she could force out the words. “No, no, no, I don’t want to die. I never said that. I’d rather run from my problems than end them permanently.”
“Just tell me, whoever you are… What’s the point of living?”
“What’s the point, when all we do is just exist?”
There was no answer.
– unrelated excerpt from the thoughts that appeared, stuck and lingered.
“good intrusive thoughts” i know you all get your entire scientific education off random tumblr posts but please for the love of god read even just one psych paper. im begging
or even just take an english class. “intrusive” means you don’t want them. they’re unwelcome. they can NEVER be fun or quirky or funny because by definition they are unsettling, unwelcome, and INTRUSIVE. jesus fucking christ
Maybe there should be an alternate term for thoughts that randomly show up in your mind but they’re actually good??
im bi but I tend to get crushes on fictional male characters more that real men and real women more than fictional female characters
so I guess I like to concept of men
i think this is a common feeling because men are written with such depth and complexity, whereas fictional women are not only few and far between, but are written half-assedly and from a place of little understanding of a woman’s standpoint.
meanwhile, real women are lovely and complex people, and real men are mostly just potatoes.
artherra 